Nota Etika: August 2018

Dalam kata taknak preggy lagi, tiba-tiba eh dah anak ketiga dah.
Tiba-tiba eh dah setahun dah.
Anak ketiga ni terpaling rasa kejap sangat besarkan dia. Rasanya macam baru je lagi orang datang melawat Ali time dalam pantang. Sekarang ni i tengah busy pulak prepare untuk orang nak datang celebrate his first birthday.

A year ago; the struggled and the pain to deliver my baby 'girl-turns-out-to-be-a-boy' was taking a whole day.

29th August 2017

11am
Masuk harini dah berapa hari asyik berjalan dengan ibu and my sisters pergi mall.
Ibu memang dah ready stay dekat rumah i sebab due date 2 Sept. So kalau terdeliver nanti, ibu boleh tolong jagakan Izz and Umarr so that the husband boleh temankan dalam labour room.

Pagi-pagi lagi dah rasa macam sakit pulak pinggang sengal-sengal.
Dah nama pun third pregnancy, so rasanya maybe dalam dua tiga hari ni kot baru deliver. (yakin sangat)
Then harini decide nak pergi Melawati Mall dgn ibu just to buy the iron board.

6pm
After a tiring stroll at mall, sampai rumah and terus pergi toilet (as usual things to do for preggy woman) Tiba-tiba i check ada darah keluar sikit.
Aduh, hati dah berdebar dah.
Bila bagitahu ibu, ibu kata tak lama dah. Esok mesti bersalin ni.
So beg semua ready dah dalam kereta.
Husband pulak ada benda dia beli barang nak kena pickup dekat Serdang.
Nak tak nak kena ikut lah sebab takut jadi apa-apa dekat rumah time dia takde, siapa pulak nak bawak pergi hospital.

9pm
Perut dah mula dah rasa memulas consistently. Around setengah jam rasa sakit datang.
Dalam kereta i memang diaaaaammmmmmm je. I diam selalunya kalau time marah je. Hahaha
But this time around, diam sebab sakit sangat pinggang rasa macam nak tercabut.
Yang dalam drama sakit nak deliver sambil jerit-jerit tu memang totally fake.
I sakit sampai diam tak boleh nak cakap apa sampai ketap-ketap bibir ni.

Husband banyak kali tanya
"Ok ke tak ni?"
And what does he expect me to say?
Masih diam.

30th August 2017

12am
After picked up barang, terus husband drive pergi Hospital Selayang.
Dah parking siap depan emergency, time nak register tu, kitorang tak bawak pun sijil nikah.
(Disclaimer: Yes, kitorang masih tak buat Kad Nikah sebab takde sebab. Kahkah)
Alamak, dah lah tengah sakit teruk dah ni. Husband nak kena patah balik pulak pergi ambil sijil nikah.
This is the only chance i have nak suruh husband teman masuk labour room.
Nasib baik nurse tu cakap boleh je suruh siapa-siapa whatsapp kan gambar sijil tu.
Ok problems solved.

So nurse dah suruh tukar baju apa semua and naik pergi wad dulu since baru 2cm dilated.
Husband pun just stay dekat surau je dulu.

Time dekat wad tu, makin lama makin teruk sangat sakit ni.
Sakit dia lagi sakit dari second pregnancy but still can't beat the pain from induce punya first pregnancy. (sakit induce 3x lebih sakit)
Haaa boleh bayang tak? haha

Nurse datang tanya nak bius tak?
Eh of course lah nak cause just can't bear with the pain anymore!!!!!
Dia kata ok lah nanti tunggu doc datang.

Bila doc datang, dia check dulu bukaan.
And dia cakap nanti dia bagi bius.
Ok lah then i pun take a rest tidur dulu time tak sakit. Tapi bila the pain strikes, terjaga balik.
But seriusly, pregnancy kali ni, dia macam utamakan tidur.
Asal tak sakit je, mesti ambil kesempatan terus tidur. hahaha
(Waktu 2nd pregnancy dulu, selalu rasa nak makan je even time tengah sakit contraction pun and poof here we have our eater; Umarr. haha)

5am
And i waited the doc yang cakap nak bagi bius till now.
I waited for nothing.
Then ada doc lain pulak yang datang. Nampak macam pangkat lagi besar.
Dia tengok i macam tengah struggle sangat tahan contraction and dia tanya takde siapa-siapa ke bagi bius? And i said Hell No!!!
Dia terus check bukaan Guess what, it's 9cm already.
Terus doc tu marah-marah doc yang before this. Yang i ingat ayat dia;
"Patient sakit sampai mintak bius pun takde yang nak bagi"
"Cuba kalau dia yang sakit nak beranak then takde orang bagi bius apa dia rasa"
And the rants to the other doc goes on......

6am
I am in the labour room now.
Waiting the right time to push push the baby.
Excitingly i have my husband right beside me (yayyyy after years waited for this moment)
And you know what, time husband ada dekat sebelah, tiba-tiba i macam tak boleh tahan sangat the contraction pain (mengada tawww)
Dia tolong tengok ctg and bila the contraction is coming, dia boleh tahu and suruh bersabar.
Like seriously dia suruh sabar time ni. (waktu contraction, any advices semua rasa macam tak masuk akal) hahaha
The doc yang nak sambut baby ni doc lain pulak. She's yound around 23 kot.
Dia check bukaan then terus prepare apa semua barang untuk the push moment.

Suddenly ada nurse pakai baju biru ni masuk.
Dari jauh je dia cakap; "Kenapa doc dah suruh dia teran? Belum fully dilated lagi tu. Kalau doc paksa tu nanti koyak banyak lah" (haha terer gila dia). Dia relax je marah doc tu.
The doc kemas balik all the stuffs. hahahaha
Actually that moment happened almost 3-4 times.
I yang rasa stress! Kita ni dah sakit teruk tp the doc bagi harapan dah boleh push but when the nurse came, kena simpan balik tenaga nak push. Goshhh~

8.15am
And finally, berkat suami ada dekat sebelah, the baby was out! Alhamdulillah.
Doc pun angkat the baby and suruh sebut the gender.
My husband and i was totally shock with the male sign.
I was crying not because of the happiness but we have prepared all the girls clothes in the bag.
And i was crying when i thought we're gonna have a baby girl for this time.
Dari dalam perut lagi, everyone in the house panggil baby "Iman"
hahahahaha
Despite the sadness, i am thankful to Allah for the healthy and cutie lil boy.
Adalah hikmah Allah bagi anak lelaki. AGAIN.

Then, after i keluar wad, esoknya terus kitorang sambut raya haji.
With our new addition family members.
Sepatutnya due date dia time first raya haji lah. Tapi tak sabar.
Nak keluar before merdeka siap.

Now, Ali has turned 1 year old and i swear he is such a mommy boy and sangat manja among all the brothers.
Abang-abang pun nampak sayang sangat dekat budak kecik ni. haha
Tapi manja manja pun, dia paling garang.

I remember when i was carrying him in my womb,
i swear i always think that i am that fabulous. Kahkahkah (tolong muntah)
Selalu rasa diri cantik je setiap hari.
And that makes me feel "ni mesti baby girl ni" hahahahaha