As you can see, i have this one hypothesis;
Semakin lama umur perkahwinan, semakin lambat buat blogpost anniversary.
Hahahaha.
But nevermind. Better late than never.
Sebab i dah janji to my self yang i have to do this annual blogpost everytime anniversary sebab inilah satu-satunya cara for me untuk terus ingat our love stories or whatever marriage conflicts supaya bila one of us semakin menjauh dari rasa cinta, hoping that this could help us to make our love blooming once again. Which i pray that it will never happen but who knows.
At least bila tua and baca balik semua ni, it could remind us the struggling to be where we are on that time.
Every year, i never failed to pray that Allah will give us more rezeki in the next next year so that this year will always be our last tough year.
But i perasan, i still rasa every year is tough for us like Allah belum makbulkan lagi doa kami untuk lebih senang buat kami anak beranak.
Tapi sebenarnya Allah dah bagi apa yang kami perlukan cuma i sendiri yang selalu compare our life with others which made me think why we still not kaya like our relatives and friends.
Thus i always think rezeki is money and being rich.
And this thing yang selalu buat kita bergaduh like hell.
You guys know what, last year i got called from the hospital sebab katanya i ada symptom-symptom of depression.
(sebab months before tu i ada jawab questionnaire given by the doc)
To be frank, on 2018 tapi i tak ingat bila,
depan anak-anak semua i pegang pisau dekat leher and jerit bagitau husband yang i nak bunuh diri.
Ok. I tiba-tiba rasa sedih to tell others bout this sebab i tak suka sebenarnya to tell the bitter side of ours tapi that's actually happened to me.
Tapi waktu dpt phone call from the doc tu, i tak rasa pun nak follow up sebab i rasa i mengada-ngada gila kalau i pergi since my husband is really a good listener and a great support system for me.
Cumanya i just can't control my anger and emotions. I cepat meltdown bila things happened not as my planned.
Depression is real but it depends on you guys how to deal with it.
But don't worry, i am good now. I'm normal.
Cumanya nak bagitahu yang every thing happens in your marriage, communication is the only key.
Talk to your spouse.
Even menjerit sekali pun. Let it out.
At least tak terpendam.
Then have a good discussion so that both parties can reflect to what had happened.
And fix it!!!
But the utmost thing is, be grateful.
Marriage is not always a fairy tale.
So for this year,
I pray that Allah will always give us more love.
I pray that Allah will broaden our shoulder to bear all the tests.
I pray that Allah will tighten our hands to go through the hardship together.
So that we could be the best for each other.
So that we can be grateful for what we have.
So that we will strive together to fulfill our kids' wishes.
Oh yaa, i also need help from you guys,
Please please please....pray for my husband to finish his masters this year.
I really need that. Hahaha
Mana tahu, one of your prayers will be answered by Allah.
I will pray all the good things to surround my readers.
Aamiinn aamiinn ya mujib.
Sayang,
Happy 7th anniversary.
Awak memang yang terbaik untuk saya. And no one will always be like you.
You clean up the house,
You cook for us,
You find money for us,
You always make us laugh,
You always there for us,
And i know, you are trying to give the best for us.
That's why you're taking your masters just to raise up our living standards.
But please, we've been waited till 3 years.
Finish it soon sayang.
Hahaha.
We love you ayah.
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